On The Lupie Side Of The Street

I had a fabulous day yesterday, a much needed break. I spent the day hanging out with my sister Lindsay and our friend Michelle. We grilled out munching on delicious kabobs, attempted to swim even though it was way too cold, and sat outside constantly changing the conversation. I was then introduced to a lovely game on Play Station 3, Little Big Planet. At first I didn't understand the concept of the game but once I played, it all sort of made sense. Gaming time was much needed and appreciated, thanks Michelle! When I realized the price of LBP and the PS3 today I realized it is way out of my reach. Is the game fun? Of course! But can I justify the price? Nope. Not when I've got loads of stuff in me that needs to be fixed.

I'm still job hunting, calling places, sending in resumes. Whenever I sort of get a lead I get really excited. But when it doesn't work out, it just sends me down in the pit of despair. Do I stay there for very long? No. It just makes me temporarily feel like I'm not good enough and I can't do anything right. I'm sure every other unemployed person on the face of the earth feels the same way. Even though I try not to stay "down" for very long, it still affects me time after time.

Currently I'm debating on calling the doctor. Even though I was wearing sunscreen yesterday and I was in the shade, the sun really messed with me. I'm beginning to flare and I have some other issues that are not helping. But for the past few weeks I've had a sore throat that hasn't been excruciating, it just hasn't gone away. Now though it's become difficult to swallow, I feel like there is a small ball stuck in the back of my throat. I've had this feeling before and it's always gone away. It doesn't happen all the time either. So knowing my luck by the time I saw a doctor it wouldn't be bothering me at that moment. That's always my luck. I guess if it is still around next week I'll make an appointment. For now I'll grin and bear it.

I wish I had something fabulous and inspirational to say but I'm just exhausted. I feel like my brain has been fried with a side of eggs sunny side up (great mental image). I've been decoupaging a lot here lately when I haven't been job hunting. It's one of those mindless activities that is fun once you get into it. I've unfortunately run out of ordinary household objects to decoupage. I think there might be an old peanut butter jar somewhere? I haven't been exercising a lot here either. As much as I love walking, I just haven't been motivated. It's hard to do something especially when you aren't really seeing results. I guess I'll force myself to do it today if it doesn't start raining.

So here's what I need:

1. The opportunity to change people's lives for the better.
   
2. A job.
3. A really nice dentist willing to donate free dental work (my mouth is a wreck, thanks genetics and Lupus, perfect oral hygiene has gotten me nowhere). Heck, I don't even consume sugar or eat foods that can cause erosion!
   
4. A smidge more energy.
5. This feeling of "something bad's gonna happen" to get rid of itself.

That's all for now! I think I'll feel better with a little bit of hope and a lot of rest.