The Slump Has Passed!

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Well I think I might be back from the land of temporary sadness. I think all the stress from the past few weeks just came and dumped itself on me. Let's face it, we all have our bad days and yesterday felt beyond bad. You seriously cannot expect me to be peppy and optimistic every single day out of the year? I mean, of course you could but wouldn't that be a little bit unrealistic? I think we all should be allowed a bad day without having bad thoughts being thought about us. I think my bad day had been coming for a while and I just delayed giving into it. I'm still a little "off" feeling today, but life is getting better.

Recently, I've started talking to another woman whom I share a lot in common with. We met on Twitter, we both have lupus, and it turns out we have the same doctor! I know in this day in age one needs to be careful with online communication. But we've exchanged email addresses and shared our experiences, especially living with lupus. Because of her, I was sort of able to move through my slump yesterday. It seems as if she came into my life at the perfect time. I don't have many people in my life who truly understand what it's like to be me. I try to live my life as if I'm not dealing with a chronic illness. Sometimes though I have to talk to someone about it. So dear friend, if you are reading this, thank you. I know we have just initiated communication but it feels so great to have someone whom I can relate to.

Now Twitter friends, please don't be mad at me. I am also extremely thankful for your love and support. If some of you want to get to know me past the 140 characters that Twitter allows, send me a direct message. I love Twitter though because it can be so up to the minute. It's instant communication, with no delays for the most part (silly fail whale). When someone is doing great, you can share in their joy! When someone is feeling down, you can lift them up! It's a small support group in a way, especially if your fellow Tweeters are people who share your common interests. I'm also meeting more and more interesting people on Twitter with each passing day. And if you are following me on Twitter and we haven't chatted, I'm sorry! Feel free to @ me if you think I haven't talked to you in error.

It looks like it is about to rain here. I need to clean, can you tell, I clean every single day. I'm a neat freak, not OCD, I just prefer life to be organized. I then need to go on a walk, I was really bad this morning and had waffles, no syrup though, just a little bit of butter. I wish this weight I'm gaining would distribute itself. I think I am going to feel fat until it finally decides to make up it's mind where it's going to go. Oh and for those of you who are wondering how much I really weigh, I'm around 100 pounds, sometimes 98, sometimes 101. But I'm only 5'1 so it feels like a lot of weight for me.

I also think for a while there y'all weren't able to leave comments on here. I think I fixed it! A pop up box should come up and then you enter your information. So feel free to comment away!

Bisous,
Erika

P.S.- Things on the job hunting front might be looking up. Just keep praying, hoping, wishing, jumping backwards, do what you do to make it work!

4 comments:

maria said...

I am honored to say that I am one of those Twitter followers of yours! As a veteran with lupus, I have to say that these up and down moments will be many...especially for someone as young as yourself. You carry an additional burden of trying to remain relevant to your age group, which is something I was fortunate to have been able to avoid.

You also, however, are exceptionally wise in how you are going about your 'flutuations' by recognizing the importance of connection. Back in the day, we didn't have these social networks so easily accessible and many weren't using the ones that were around. More people are using them today and it offers those who aren't ready to (or interested in) participating in a support group, a nessesary outlet for the emotional/problem-focused coping needs we all have.

Didn't mean to write a book ~ just wanted to let you know you're doing very well in my opinion and I am sending you a smile with lots of encouragement.

Loverly Lupie Me said...

Thank you for your book. I truly appreciate it. I means the world to me that someone cares enough to comment on my blog. Thank you for all of your support and letting me know that I'm not alone in this journey!

RA Guy said...

Glad to hear that you're coming out of your slump. Don't be too hard with yourself, all of us go through down periods - and I think those of us living with chronic illness go through it more often. The goal is not to have down moments, but not to get stuck in those down moments.

Hope the job search continues well - once again, the inability to find a job at the moment is more a sign of this tough economy than anything else.

Looking forward to reading your blog...

RA Guy

Loverly Lupie Me said...

I try not to stay down in the dumps for long. I'll allow myself a few days and then force myself to move on.

Not being able to get hired is pretty tough. I haven't worked in a while so that makes me less desirable. All I can do is keep trying and hoping that someone gives me a chance. And then they will fall in love with my overly organized self and wonder how they ever lived without me. Tee hee hee, that's my wish!

Thanks for the comment!